nyk’s match at 1! so excited. they havent played since wed.
and, just saying.. i guess i’ve decided to stop hanging on to j. its just not worth it. if he has doubts about us then why must i be the one hanging on telling him (and myself that we’ll work out). im better off looking around for other better guys. ((:
im sorry that im such a pathetic loser who craves love so much. damn it. i dont want brains and i dont want money. i just want someone who loves me like crazy. i dont even think i told my closest friends the things that happened to j when we werent together because they’ll just know what a loser i am to still hang on to him after so much..